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Hope Over Reason

        When Gavin was born, we knew he would probably be our last baby. This isn’t because we didn't think we could handle more children or because we finally wanted our "freedom," but because my life and health would be in serious danger. My age and history of pregnancy complications including four miscarriages, placenta previa, pre-eclampsia, and emergency c-section have increased my risk. My body has been through a lot to get these children here--not to mention the spiritual and emotional distress accompanying each challenge along the way.       Raising our children has been a joy--not always blissful, but still worth every sacrifice. There have been multiple times during this pandemic that I have felt grateful for our full house---more noise, more interaction, more messes, and more work, but "more" is a blessing in a time when people feel particular stress about less--less interpersonal interaction, less sports, less toilet paper, less v...

School Bells

Next week is our fifth week of school (distance learning) and I’m still struggling to find a rhythm. The first day of Kindergarten was rough. Gavin cried, "But I want to go to REAL kindergarten. With a classroom and kids and where I see my teacher!" Last week, Gavin had his 5-year old checkup. The doctor asked if he was going to school. Gavin said, "Yes. Well, not actual real school because of coronavirus, but maybe, one day, when it's safe, we can go." That kid! It's weird to hear 10-year-old words come from a 40-pound kindergartener.  I don't have first-day of school pics. I could blame the wretched virus because everything is the virsus's fault, right? But not this. I don't have first-day pictures because I always forget to take them and if I remember and pull out my phone to snap some pictures, it feels forced and unnatural and my kids don't want to pose and I don't want to fight. This is what I do have: I dared Ricky to go to school...